Wishing For Rain

Sleepless nights fade into reflective mornings
and I find myself there
gazing out of winter windows
searching dark horizons
for a glimpse of the rain
that teases my senses with hope
the aroma of things yet to come
lingers heavy upon the sill
and yet if feel no comfort
in the possibility

As dawn stretches and wakes
I slowly begin to realize
her presence is much more demanding
that I could have ever imagined
an overwhelming beauty that majestically
takes hold of everything she touches
turning hearts inside out
changing lives forever
writing and rewriting destiny
ah, such power she does wield

I find myself cringing as I watch the stars
disappear one by one
behind the brilliance of her hues
a faint light of what they use to be
lingering in wait somewhere
on the other side of today
praying for the birth of a whispered dream
to illuminate their presence
so they can be seen shining
within her beauty

But not all stars shine brightly
and not all dreams get dreamt
in that place beyond the slow
tick of time-where dreams die
and broken hearts stay broken
the colors of dawn are just a faint memory
and the stars that fade are soon forgotten

Beyond the hush of day
there 'neath radiating skyscapes
I ponder what this revelation
truly means to me-
I'm not a star that shines so bright
I'm not dawn who swallows night
I'm but a girl
standing in a window
beneath fading starlight
wishing it would rain

© LadyRaine

Whisper Me Forgotten

Whisper me forgotten within
the lazy sigh of a fading Moon
where I'll remain still
silently being reborn
within each tear a lover cries
each dream that slowly dies

Each moment you spend
wondering why destiny
left you on the wayside of love
not ever realizing
you held the rhythm of my heart
in the palm of your hand
but couldn't feel the beat

The fate of my soul
was etched within your truths
yet when your heart's longings
were recited to the stars above
there in the darkness
you never felt my love
wrap around you
trying so desperately
to warm your cold and
fill your emptiness

I held your tears with
trembling hands
begging the night
to free you from your pain
and as you fell to your knees
giving yourself to the breaking dawn
I brushed my heartstruth tender
across your wanton lips
and still you felt me not

As you rose to face another
lonely sunrise
I fell deeper into a fading night
where I pleaded with time to
whisper me forgotten within
the lazy sigh of a fading Moon
where I'll remain still
silently being reborn
within each tear a lover cries
and each dream that slowly dies

© LadyRaine

And I finally understood

I always knew
she belonged to you
She shared your soul
I felt it
Even when you placed her
in the palm of my hand
I never once forgot
who her true owner was
And I saw you there
Watching from the shadows
With trembling fear
in your eyes
Yet you never said a word
Or tried to take her back

I didn't mean to lose her
I swear I only sat her down
for a moment
Placing her ever so gently
between "Love and war"
and red licorice whips
I just wanted to swim
between the ivory poles
And brush the lips
of the seeing blind man
But I got drunk
on his heartbeat
Losing my way
back to her

So when the Red Queen
showed up
Demanding she
had news
For my ears only
I had to go
with her

But I never forget
I was going
to go back

But once
her majesty's mouth
opened
And a thousand lost days
came tumbling out
How could I leave
How could I abandon
her truths
How could I
abandon her
I couldn't

So I stayed
Trying to recapture moments
for my Queen
Where instead
in midnight reflections
I found once again
The man who claimed
to have no sight
Yet saw better
than any man I knew

He lingered under
an opened window
Forecasting that a
cloudless sky would rain
And I pondered
the strength in his claim
Wanting so badly
to believe in his storm
But when I gazed
upon the skies
I saw only
a sequence harmony

And then he pulled me close
This gentle man
Placing his hand
over my eyes
Before stroking his truths
between my lips
I fell to my knees
in shame
As the rain began
to fall

When he moved his hand
To wipe raindrops
from his face
I saw her there
And then I knew
She was part
of my soul too

And when I placed her
in his palm
I felt the fear
of losing her
Race up my spine
As I knew you had
But my heart told me
It was the
right thing to do

And in that moment
Your memory flooded me
And I finally understood

© LadyRaine





Raining Sunshine

Hot air balloons freckle early morning skies
playfully dancing across the lips
of dawns waking smile

Nature reaches across her horizon
into the discontented corners of my mind

Teetering on the edge of sanity
I ponder the many steps
it took me to get here

In the distance day darkens quickly
as an Arizona summer storm moves in

Sunbeams defiantly break through many clouds
stretching beyond the boom of thunder
and the strike of lightening
to extend a courteous hand out
asking rain if she would like to dance

Soon the moments become as damp
as the depths of my soul
and I realize times soars across eternity
an arrow straight and true
ever moving onward
even when it seems to be standing still

And while I linger here drenched
still traveling and retracing the paths
that brought me

Skies part and sun dominates once again
even though rain is still determined to fall

Reminding me no matter
the road walked
the mistakes made
the hope lost
just like the rain still falling
it's not in me to ever give up

I will always be that one
who trudges on past yesterday
into the uncertainty of today
with a heart full of hope
and a stance ready for any foe

And just as it began to rain in earnest
a contentment filled my mind
as the promise of an new tomorrow
inspired my feet to take that first step
towards a new path leading
to a not so frightening future,
after all

© LadyRaine






HeartSpun Desperation

Every night you
can find her there
kneeling quiet within
the shadows of time
desperately trying to connect
her past to her present
her arms outstretched
her fingers clutching
minutes on both sides
as her tears fall lost
within someone elses moments

She sees through
tainted eyes
that distort every
second that
ticks her world
into a collection
of betrayed promises
and stolen forevers
she's lost in memories
she can't change
and dreams she can't
quite let go of

Deep within the light
of a blood-orange full moon
hiding in the depths
of a wanton midnight
she pulls out her quill
and feverishly
etches broken verse
across the canvas of night
her ink bleeds
her ache
as she writes

She captures
lover's hearts in verse
as they fall dreamt
from fading dreams
scribbling deliberate
little things
with unconscious
intentions
playing for keeps
in the name of love
yet realizing
moments like tears
repeat themselves
far too often
and everything
could be lost
within the
splintered memories
of shattered days

It's a dark and
lonely moment
when finally she
falls to her knees
summoning all that she is
to give her the strength
to pull her past into her future
connecting all things
come and gone
with those yet to be
calling on hope
and destiny
to right the wrongs
of her yesterdays
changing this minute right now
into a 'last night's dream' instead
of 'this moments reality'
and forever saving her tomorrows
from being the same as her todays

© LadyRaine

Bittersweet Twilight

midnight comes
in shades of bittersweet

hues pleading to turn
back weary days

colors that beg to undo
the last big mistake

this weeping heart
of mine has made

porch light confessions
ever validating need

whispered forever's
forgotten as quickly

as the longed for words
came to be

a life time of chasing
unrealized dreams

crimson truth bleeds
from the cracked stars

that hold my wishes
and deny my desires

allowing me to
forever believe in destiny

and kismet
starcrossed possibilities

pondering and unraveling
time already spun

dissecting each move
looking for reason

wondering what the tear
in the corner of my eye

led you to believe
when you peered inside

not one to place the blame
all upon you

realizing I'm hopelessly
in love with the idea of love

a whore for what romance
could come to be

melting for any soul
that even looks at me

even when I know
such things rarely exist

my stubborn heart
continues to persist

am I just a fool
lost within a lover's maze

or is there honesty
to be found inside this haze

I have never been
a true friend of dawn

but right now
these star speckled skies

see everything
I'm trying so desperately
to hide

calling me out
spilling my absolutes
before my eyes

early morning rays
are needed to validate

the strengths I can
and do posses

when backed into a corner
of regret

reminding me this is just
another bad night

and I am that woman that will
ever fight for dreams

while continuing to believe
that their always worth it

that my justification is definitaly
out there somewhere

in the reality of a heart
that truly can and does care

©LadyRaine

Can Dreams Come True?

And in the time it takes
for me to ink these words to paper
another grain falls burying you deeper
within the mound of my time
reflection and regret
are wicked mistresses indeed
when once upon a starstrewn midnight
you were here
inside my moments
inside my life

Pondering yesterdays
only takes me to that place
I don't want to be
lost in feel
yet completely numb
blind to the truth of things
refusing to accept what is
even when knowing
it always will be

But then that is what constructs
the soul of a dreamer
the magic that shapes
a shooting star
into a spark of hope
believing in the impossible
even when the possible
is the only sanity

Knowing somewhere
between a moonless night
and a crimson dawn
there echoes a
whispered dream
that escaped my lips long ago
reciting my path in this life
whether it be in victory or defeat
I can only follow

I am not in control
my soul refuses to let me
let it go
and my heart
my ridiculously stubborn heart
protests my truths
etching my dreams
forever in my eyes

Perhaps I am just a jester
another fool for love
lost eternally within
the freefall of time
etched in the shadows
of a perfectly imperfect moment
from a million heartbeats ago

Or maybe my life, my path
my hopes and dreams
are the only true sanity
I will ever find in this life
and maybe just maybe
believing in the impossible
is and always will be
my only truth absolute
my only savior and
and my only salvation

© LadyRaine

Surviving Hope

Hope lays precious
upon autumn leaves
falling defiantly
from dreaming trees
yet the landscape still
looks the same to me

Tempest brews crooked
within a thriving storm
looming nameless
on the other side
of victory
threatening to change
more than just
the lingering
seasons

November winds
blow warmly betrayed
carrying the pretense
of summer
wrapped softly
in the aroma
of coconut oil
and chlorine

leaving me
not knowing just
how to feel
-inside or out

But I just keep thinking
if I'm lucky
tomorrow it will rain

© LadyRaine

Hope's Unkept Secret

time sits restless upon today
as an eerie melody sings of a
tomorrow that may never come

I ponder all the minutes long gone
as well as the moments longing to be
and I can't help but feel your presence
laced within all my thoughts

as dreams dangle undreamt
from stars that refuse to shine
I realize the twilight hours that
used to embrace me unconditionally
no longer offers me
any refuge from dawn

sometimes I can't feel anything at all
and other times all I feel is you

but silence becomes
the distance between us
because small talk
is an arrow straight and true
piercing all the words
that need to be said

words that will betray our hearts
with our very own truth

and that's when I find myself
in that place where excuses
aren't acceptable anymore

where dreams are just dreams
and where love won't save me
or set me free
and all that we are
seems like
some sort of fantasy

as the quickening
tick of time
seems to orchestrate
the beat of my heart

I reason it is all just a façade
that there is so much more truth
beyond today

but deep within the secrets
I keep hidden
in the shadows of my soul

I know tomorrow's hope
no longer shimmers or glows
that we are already
just a memory

our love only
a tattered page
forever etched upon
the lonely book of history

© LadyRaine

Pickled dreams fermenting in glass jars
Sundrenched along the white picket fences

From a nicotine laced window sill
Tired eyes look on above the stench

Benign thunder teases the moment
Where dusty tears never fall

The aroma of rain is just an illusion
That dances upon her sanity

How long has she gazed out across
Barren tomorrows

Her mouth waters as she remembers
Desperately trying to savor the taste

Recalling a thousand yesterdays
Forever lost in wait

Exhaling starstroked destinies into today
She silently succumbs

Reaching through a cloud of billowing grey
She presses her hand gently to the pane glass

And she blinks for the first time
In far to many years

© LadyRaine

Midnight Ink

and on nights like this
when Luna barely shows her face
and the wind howls wicked
and the sky cries lonely
and I'm the only one
out here searching the stars
in the darkness
I can't fight back the tears
that will eventually claim my cheeks

and then
my pen calls to me
beckoning my soul
and I know I've got to go
I'm a slave to it's ink
a whore to it's salvation

there are no faces
or names
attached to the pain
it's just a cologue
of lost dreams
and broken memories
collectively bleeding
hues across tattered pages


but it is as it should be
my pain, my loneliness, my love
pouring from my heart
penning yesterdays long gone
and the promise tomorrows yet to be

and I know this won't save me
but for one moment
there in the dark
it feels like it just might

so I write and I write
and when dawn yawns
rousing slowly awake
I am able to find a minute of beauty
a moment of peace that is all mine
there in the silent hope of a new day

© LadyRaine